So for the past couple of days I've been feeling really dizzy, tired, stressed, not hungry with like headaches and all most passing out and stuff. I've been telling my best friend everything about it and he's starting to worry heaps, but he doesn't live in the same town as me so theres not a lot he can do and he's telling me to go to a doctor and stuff and I don't do doctors. He thinks its something really serious, like a brain tuma. I haven't told him but he sort of freaked me out when he said that. My mind sort of started going a thousand miles a minute "what if I do" "what if its worse!" etc etc. So I'm a little freaked out but hiding it well, as you do. But I guess I'm a little worried about this, but my mum doesn't seem to think its anything so theres no need to worry, right? I don't know anymore.
I'd really love to just wake up one morning and have everything right. Have my best friend with me, my parents not fighting, my brothers and sister safe, have a certain someone safe with me and me have a true smile on my face.

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Why?

I sit here, in my room and have one question, just one, running through my mind the whole time. Why?
It's the only question that can't be answered. Science tries to give reason to everything, tries to explain why everything happens, but can they completely answer it, I mean of course they can answer the scientific questions, like why we have sound and why one part of the earth is hot while the other is cold. But they can't answer the fundamental questions; like why we're here? why some people are happy when others are sad? and so on.
So i would have to say that why is the most predominant question in my life, and I can never seem to find any answers, just more questions.

She's banged up, mentally and emotionally,
literally and metaphorically, but every day
she walks outside with a smile on her face
because that's who she is.

A randomly famous quote I found.

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